New n Improved….

Times have changed and so have we,
Old times seem light years away.
Gone are the days when the postman came knocking at the door,
Now an email comes even if we don't want them anymore..
The long love letters have a place in museums,
Now the sweethearts are happy with their e-cards.
Gone are the times when friends used to be close by,
Now are the days when an SMS comes saying “Hi”.
There used to be innumerable fights and make ups,
Now they are part of memories and its time to wake up.
There used to be a generation which fought for freedom,
Now we have a bunch of ignorant youth who think their forefathers were dumb.
The scent of books have fascinated generations,
Play stations and IPods are the latest fascination.
Old melodies have been long lost,
The new generation dances to the beats of remixes.
The chats and golgappas are a thing of the day’s bygone,
All we need today is pizza, pasta and a toblerone.
The long walks, the incessant chats are a thing of the past,
Now are the times of those who can run fast.
The stupid people who waited for hours in the line..
Have now vanished and now do things online.
Change has come to us so suddenly,
Lets not fall in love with the perks so madly.
Never knew the change would be so drastic,
Need to slow down a bit and analyze the change which seems not so fantastic…..

Life Actually….

As I walk by the shore to-day,
I try hard to leave my footprints behind.
As I walk the rumbling waves come by,
They make me realize it is possible only in my mind.

Sometimes I think who will remember me when I will not be here,
Will I be able to leave a mark indelible?
But then I fear it is my worst nightmare.
May be its too early in my life to face the inevitable.

Have lived my life like there is no to-morrow,
But really want to know what my future holds.
Chances of living till eternity are narrow
So want to have all that my destiny beholds.

Childhood days are a thing of the past,
Am now a wife and hope will be a mother someday
My footprints still linger in my mother’s heart
Think I will be a child to her till I am all grey…

Have found love in so many forms,
Sometimes have not been able to reciprocate,
Don’t know whether I was right or wrong; wish could make some reforms,
Tell them their love makes me feel fortunate.

Friends always have a long story to tell,
Some of them are as long as my lifetime.
Wonder what I would have been if I had no stories to repel,
Repel the soundest minds with our stories of mischief and crime..

Never knew he will be the one I will love,
Have received more love than was due.
Think have left a mark in his heart’s cove,
The way he has left one in mine, even before I knew.

Do not wish to share whom I hold dear,
They are the stars in my midnight sky.
Hope have left a mark, there
And with a dream of a new to-morrow, to-day here I lie…

A Few Words For A Dear Friend.....

As you tie the marital knot,
I think I am missing you a lot.
Though I am thousands of miles away from there
I can imagine how beautiful you look in your bridal attire.
You were there when I tied my knot marital,
Wish I could witness your nuptial.
As I close my eyes I can see the ceremony
You two look happy and ready to face the symphony.
Marriages are made in heaven,
Love and harmony are important even.
Wish you a lifetime of happiness
With lots of love to harness.
May all your dreams turn into reality,
And they hold true till eternity.
As you stand on the verge of a new life
Hope you will prosper and thrive.
It will be hard to leave everyone that you hold dear,
Their blessings will drive out your every fear.
As you step into your new family
Try not to figure out the anomaly.
As you embark on your new journey
Have faith in God and believe in your destiny.
Love does not come to us every now and then
Now that you have been blessed always remember how fortunate you have been.
Never thought will miss your wedding ever
All I wish is that you two live happily ever after.

Towards a New Horizon..

In front of her lie possibilities innumerable,
In her heart lies a wish so strong
It provides her with power unimaginable
Makes her believe nothing can go wrong.

A belief in God that He will protect
Her against anything evil
Though it’s difficult to detect
Behind which face hides a devil.

A ray of light in her dark hollow
Hopes sore high in her empty heart
She not knows the disappointment which may follow
Once again her being is about to fall apart.

Never known love all her years
Being an orphan was not a blessing but a curse.
Always eager for a song of love that would reach her ears,
Sometimes indeed she wanted her life to be reverse.

What would her life been if she had a family?
A father, a mother with lots of siblings,
Together they would drive out any anomaly
And have a happy life which was beyond her craving.

Not all wishes are fulfilled in this short being
Meeting the man of her dreams was her last hope.
He would love her, be devoid of any short coming
And together to their own world they would elope.

Her dreams take her there everyday,
Makes her believe in her imagination.
She sets sail to discover with whom her future lay,
The scintillating life, sparkling beyond the far horizon.

Down Memory Lane….

My heart is where my home is,
Going back there is my heart’s true wish.
Miss those childhood days playing,
Often had fights with my brother which seemed annoying.
The stupid chit chats are long forgotten,
But they come back to me again and again.
Can never forget the lovely time,
Used to spend hours memorizing my rhyme.
All my brother could do was to imitate,
Make fun of me and irritate.
Miss the spy games we used to play,
I always lost early and watched in dismay.
Gone are those days we used to fight for petty things,
Now my heart yearns for his one glimpse.
The days my father took me to school used to be good fun,
He never said “No” and was always ready to run.
There used to be a dog in our ancestral house,
He used to run around after every mouse..
The house used to be always full of people
May it be someone’s marriage or another festival..
My father used to tell me the tales of his childhood,
They were quite different from mine but I could see the likelihood.
I grew up in the same house as he did,
I am fortunate that I have been there where he once hid.
The doctor was often told I was not well,
But he could not understand the problem as I was healthy as hell.
The birthday cakes my father brought used to be so good,
Wish could go back and have a piece of my childhood.
Those were the best days of my life
Miss the home in which I thrived.
It will be there in my heart forever,
It’s memories come back to me as if they never left me ever…

As I remember…. Grand Canyon

Grand Canyon.. I really do not need an introduction for this one. One of the Natural wonders of the world it’s name truly holds true. The Grand Canyon is more than a great chasm carved over millennia through the rocks of the Colorado Plateau. It’s more than an awe inspiring view. Much more than a pleasuring ground for those who hike the trails or explore the roads or flow in the current of the mighty Colorado River. The Canyon is gift that transcends what we experience. It is a piece of our Mother Earth where millions of years of history lay scattered telling the tales of the days gone by….

Standing on the edge of the Grand Canyon I could really experience it’s timelessness in comparison to our short existence. The vast expanse of the Canyon evokes awe and the grandeur of the place is something worth noticing. A mile below the rim flows the river which can hardly be seen from the top. But the work done by the river makes its presence felt.

As I stood there in awe of the place with the Grand Canyon before my eyes I realized how helpless we humans are in comparison to the great forces of nature. A canyon carved by a river, a canyon as much as 18 miles wide at some places and a few miles deep clearly wins the race against humans. A canyon so beautiful with it’s light and shade design as if it seems to have been carved by some artist who belongs to some other world… beyond the power of man.

Solitude… it’s the one word that comes to my mind when I think of the Grand Canyon… a feeling of being alone in a crowd, at peace with mother nature.

Peace.. Though thousands of people are present there at any given point of time but I still thought the place was peaceful. Rather I should say we humans are too little in comparison to the canyon to break the silence of the place.

Tranquility.. The power of the mighty river down below eliminates any sign of chaos.

Belonging… a sense of belonging prevailed as I realized that this beautiful place on Earth is for all of us to share and admire. We all belong to one single family and in front of us lay the cradle..the cradle of human civilization.

Silence.. An unexplained silence stretches across the canyon. The canyon walls standing guard in silence have witnessed so much and could say so much “if only walls could talk.”

Mysterious.. the Canyon seems to be holding on to so much and expressing so much at the same time. It seems anyone can see through it but only if that was possible..

As the shadows lengthen across the spires and buttes, time passing into the depths of the canyon I realized what this great chasm passes to us…it passes a sense of humility born in the interconnections of all that is and a willingness to care for this land. It bestows a responsibility on us to ensure that future generations have an opportunity to connect with a piece of history in which lay embedded the tales of their ancestors….

The Grand Canyon stands as a massive embodiment of the power of the turbulent Colorado River. Though the river can be hardly seen from the top of the Canyon but still it seems it’s somewhere down there continuing the work it began long before the human civilization started. Till this day it continues to flow and on it’s way carves a canyon so great that it seems that God himself could have carved a masterpiece so great….

O Lord, How manifold are thy works!
In wisdom hast thou made them all;
The Earth is full of thy riches……

Monday Morning Blues…..

Monday morning blues..a term which is quite commonly used these days by everybody. Even I end up telling my husband I too suffer from Monday morning blues though I am a housewife. So there are indeed different definitions for different people.. I thought lets check what our internet god tells us about the problem. And yes I googled of course..

I ended up with as usual innumerable search results. I thought I should have used Bing.. It could have provided me with fewer results as it claims to be a decision engine and not a search engine. I tried to use Bing and it gave me more results than I found in Google…so take a chill pill and use what you are used to…in my case Google is the word..

Anyways the links that I found I clicked on some of them and tried to decipher what does it actually mean.. if only I could find the right link. I read through some of them..how to fight Monday morning blues, steps to be taken to ward off your worst Monday morning blues and that included going to bed early on Sundays and leaving your desk tidy on Friday to what not. I thought I will make a list and let my husband know so that he has a better Monday morning. There were so many of them that I thought not to bother myself and eventually him. I took this decision of not telling him because in one of the websites the number one cure was quitting the job.. better let him suffer from the blues…:)

I don’t know who the author of this term is..but whoever he or she is should be proud enough because it’s quite a term now which people like to quote even just for the heck of it.
So if you are really suffering from such a chronic undisease all you have to do is to open the websites and find yourself a cure.
Like : Quit your job.. great advice..:)
Reduce your weekend sleep-inns … ohh really!!
Start on Tuesdays.. wish that could happen..:(
Eat breakfast.. never tried that before..:P
Watch over kids.. I don’t have any.
Look your best.. I thought I always did.
Dance to upbeat music.. really..dancing can help?
Shop for cosmetic surgery online.. ???????????
Imagine it’s Friday…if I could why am I suffering?
So some of them i mentioned are quite unique and i have added my expert comments too..i will be glad to know if it has really helped anyone cope up with the problem..

But is it so simple? Can you really prepare the human mind in such a way that a person will not like laying in bed with a loved one especially after a great weekend or will a mother ever feel like waking up her child after a hectic weekend getaway?

We all suffer from Monday morning blues irrespective of who we are. To me a Monday commences the end of weekend and I have to be alone at home.. To a mother it means she has to get up early for the next consecutive five days and get her kids ready for school.. For working couples its another five days of pushing each other to get up in the morning and running to the washroom to get ready.. For retired people it’s like saying goodbye to their children and grand children as they head to work and school respectively. For the people who hate their office and boss it’s another week of contemplating whether to write that letter or not… and who love their work it’s an opportunity to forget the comfort of the home and face the world and try and make it a better place for me and you and the entire human race…..:)

Everything happens for a Reason…

Everything in life happens for a reason,
Just to give you a pretty good season..
Everybody needs a clue,
Just to take them out of the blue..
Everyone craves a loving hand.
Just when they need the magic wand…
Everybody needs assistance when in trouble,
Just to act as their body double..
Everyone wants someone to wipe out their tears,
Just when they need to ward off their worst fears..
Everybody needs a smiling face,
Just when they need to retire from the life’s race..
Everyone needs a reason to smile,
Just when they want to make their life worthwhile..
Everything in life happens for a reason,
Just to give you a pretty good season……..

The Gift of the Magi

Across the world
Among the young and the old
There is a custom untold
Which you will know as the story unfolds..
A custom of giving gifts
Just to show there are no rifts..
Last of the pennies left
To prevent them from thinking of the things bereft.
They are the Magi
They are the ones between you and I...
They give gifts with love and care
Even without a penny to spare
The gift may be negligible
But through it shines their love inexplicable..
Some may sell their priced possessions
Just to bring smiles and contended expressions
To the hearts of their dear ones
Who might forget the gift once
And forget the sacrifice
Which may never be suffice..
But still they continue to bring smiles
Though they know they have come and will have to go on for miles..
They are the ones chosen by God
To shower gifts of love among the healthy, wealthy and odd..
They are the Magi
They are people among you and I…..

A Pocket Full of Hope..

A pocket full of hope,
When you just need a rope
To pull you through the darkness
When you just need to harness
A wish to survive
Which sometimes seems to be so naive..

A pocket full of hope,
When you just need a Pope
To give you good advice,
When a little bit of wise
Can lead you to a shore,
Leaving you wanting for more.

A pocket full of hope,
When you just need to cope
With all the things bad,
When they make you go mad
Until you get it right
And let the hope in your heart sit tight!!!

The Thriller’s Gone With You..MJ!!!

Michael Jackson…what does the name stand for?
To the world he is the greatest entertainer of all times..an American icon..a legend that will live in the hearts of his followers even though now that he is no more…
A lifetime dedicated to music..a lifetime full of fame and fortune ..a lifetime full of scandals..a lifetime full of accusations..but I think he is more of a legend that we should celebrate....that he is no more..
Yesterday I received a news update saying “MJ in hospital following cardiac arrest...” Never thought that would be followed by another news update saying “He is no more...”
Never was a great fan of him but certainly do respect him and love him for the great work he has done and really wish that the generations to come will know him as the “King Of Pop” which he truly is and will be even though now that he is no more…
May god bless your soul and may you rest in peace …MJ!!

A Walk by the Harbor…

As I walk by the harbor everyday,
I see people walking by happy, sad and gay.
As I watch the children running around,
I see their freedom knows no bounds..
As the ships sail into the harbor,
I watch in awe as they drop their massive anchor..
As the cruise ship leaves the harbor,
I find myself waving to every departing stranger..
As I see people enjoying an evening supper,
I watch the beggars who are busy quicker picker upper..
As I see the boats sailing by,
I realize it’s time for the sun to say goodbye..
As the sun sets in the horizon,
I leave the harbor to come back later for a pretty good reason...

Happy Father's Day!!!

It’s a day when everyone remembers their father and so do I. On Father’s day all around the world people celebrate the most important person in their lives but I celebrate my father every day. Honestly speaking I don’t really need a single day in a year to celebrate being his daughter. I thank God for giving him to me as a father everyday and no single day tagged by any person can really increase or decrease
how much I love him and how much I miss being away from him.
A Father’s day sale…what does it mean?
It seems really funny that people who created this day also gave the retail industry a boost as hundreds of people totally forget the significance of the day or the person and end up spending the whole day shopping and hopping from one mall to another. In that sale mania the love and the respect for the man who gave us life is somehow lost. I too love shopping and am fond of “sale” but not a Father’s day or Mother’s day sale. In any case can your love for them be on discount by any chance? No, I don’t think so.
It is not like I am against any such day but I really think that does anyone really need a day to remember the person who gave you life and made you what you are today…I don’t think so. It is just that in this modern day we just get rid of our responsibilities by buying a card and a gift for that loved one while a little time and love can really do wonders….
A Father’s Day or Mother’s Day really gives us an extra opportunity, another day in addition to the 365 to thank them for having us and giving us the most wonderful gift of all…the gift of life and the gift of their unconditional love and support.
And this goes for my Dad…I really cannot express how much I love you and miss you. I remember you everyday as much as I do today. It’s been a long time since I last saw you and I promise we will see each other soon and till then take care and always remember I am still your little girl and I know that’s how you remember me..
Love
Me....

A Sunset to Remember…

Walking down the beach……
The sun was on its journey to lighten up the other part of the world…
The sun was not happy that day I guess….leaving a mark in the sky..
The fiery red sky was telling the tale about the hard day gone by…
The lashing waves reflecting the somber mood after bidding goodbye to another beautiful day…
The cool wet sand beneath my feet reminding me of the chill setting in as the warm sunshine was at bay…
The mild breeze flowing by…
And the sun setting in the distance with a promise of another beautiful day…….

A Letter from Alcatraz…..

Imagine yourself cold and shivering on a damp and thickly fogged-in morning. Heavy steel shackles squeeze your wrists and ankles, and the constricting metal seems to amplify the cold. Your movements are constrained, which makes it difficult to maintain your balance as you embark on the island ferry. You catch a brief glimpse of what will soon be your new home across the foggy bay…

No I am not a former inmate of Alcatraz Island …the famous prison off the San Francisco Bay often known as “The Rock” but only a visitor who visited the island almost forty years after the dreaded prison was officially closed down and converted into a museum.

Each year millions of people visit this island to take in its unique history. The cell house, now empty of the dangerous criminals who were once housed there, still carries remnants of the dark events to which these walls bore witness.

“While I am still breathing”….. was the opening line of the guided audio tour that we took… As soon you enter the main prison building a feeling of somberness prevails. Though no prisoners live there now but still it seemed that we were retracing their footsteps. But what the prisoners went through in that place is only for us to imagine.

Every where around the island bits and pieces of the gruesome history of the island lay scattered and the stories make rounds about the famous inmates of the island who were one of the most incorrigible criminals of America…

In the dining hall stands the board on which the menu for the last day of the prison remains unscathed..i don’t remember what the menu was but it was not something what we would fancy. In the kitchen the knives were mounted on cases so that if one is stolen the cook can raise an alarm…in spite of all this quite a few of them were indeed stolen and later used in attempts to escape from the island but most of them in vain…..

The recreation center of the prisoners is something worth mentioning. It is rather a bare ground with a gallery on one side and a wall on the other side with a gusty wind blowing all year round. It is so windy over there that I could hardly stand at one place but the prisoners used to sit there for hours together because it was their heaven, it was the only place where they could have a piece of the life they missed..the sun ..the rain.. the winds..the clouds..and most importantly a birds eye view of the San Francisco city through a tiny hole on the door…….

As the tour went on it took us to what they call “The Hole”….it is nothing but a pitch dark cell which was used to keep the prisoners in isolation..not a ray of light, not a sound ..nothing…it seemed almost it lacked anything and every thing fit for human habitation….the only thing human ..”While I am still breathing..."

I always wanted to visit Alcatraz Island but I never knew the experience will be so heart wrenching. Dreaded, grim and mysterious are the words which can even come close to describe the island. A sneak peek into the island’s past and I knew why at the entrance it was written “Break rules and you go to prison, break prison rules and you go to Alcatraz.”

My journey to Alcatraz ended as I boarded the ferry to come back to San Francisco rather to come back to civilization far from the icy coldness of the place.. far from the rigid silence of the prison walls which could say so much”if only walls could talk..."

Calcutta Calling.....

Oh Calcutta!
My heart still skips a beat when i hear that...the city of joy..the former capital of India..the cultural hub of the country..home of Rabindranath Tagore..Bankimchandra and many more prolific writers..yes it is my own Calcutta, my home and not Kolkata as it is now known as...

One of the first things that comes to my mind when i think of Calcutta is the Howrah Bridge..the pride of Calcutta...the gateway to Calcutta.As a child going out of station seemed appealing because i got an opportunity to drive through the massive bridge..i looked in awe every time as my father showed me the Ganges and tried to teach me which direction of the river leads to Allahabad..my aunt's place..

People often say Calcutta appeals to those people who have lived there but the truth is that the city has touched every one who has ever been there in it's special ways.One thing that cannot be undermined is the spirit and hospitality of it's inhabitants.
From the early morning activities at the Babu Ghat..to the busy streets of Park Street.to the narrow by lanes of North Calcutta...to the crowded Kalighat temple ..to the street hawkers of Gariahat.. to the maddening crowds at Eden gardens...the spirit of Calcutta is alive and well in it's people.

Calcutta is a very cosmopolitan and modern city...orthodox in it's own way and modern on the other trying hard to embrace the new age.

The best thing about Calcutta is it's cuisine..a mixture of many cultures..
In Calcutta you can find the most amazing "Biriyani" and at the same time the most authentic Indianised Chinese food.As a child i remember going to Park Street for dinner...and how can i even forget China Town..the hakka noodles and gravy chilli chicken have rocked the hearts of Calcuttans for years now and obviously i am no exception.

The city celebrates Durga Puja and Christmas with equal enthusiasm..such is the love of of other cultures. The decked up Park Street on Christmas Eve and New Year is a sight worth seeing. I have been to many places but have never seen a Hindu dominated city celebrating Christmas with such enthusiasm. The city takes another beautiful look during the Durga Puja festival. All year round every Bengali waits eagerly for the pujas to come so that they can surrender themselves to a spiritual and cultural extravaganza. The clear blue skies with small white clouds, pleasant winds and fields adorned with "Kash Phool" signal the advent of "Sarat Kaal" and with it comes Durga Puja. The environment casts a magic spell and every one gets carried away by the grandeur of the festival....

Calcutta is a modern city built on the ruins of the past...though it's changing day by day yet it has managed to cling to it's roots.Calcutta today is as parochial as it is modern.It lives in the past as much as it lets it's past decay. India's first global city,it is littered with the remains of many worlds: the rickshaws brought in by the Chinese,the Mughlai food brought in by the Mughals, the hip hop and jazz culture brought in by the Americans and the everlasting impressions left behind by the British.

Calcutta to me is my home..it reminds me of my childhood days..it reminds me of the days i walked around the city holding my mother's hand....Calcutta to me is more than Victoria Memorial or Kalighat or Mohanbagan or Flury's or even Saurav Ganguly. Though all these things together make what Calcutta is today...it will always be special to me in more than one way..to me it is what i call......
Home..Sweet Home!!!

Being Married....

Yes!I DO....being a Hindu girl i did not have to say those words out loud but certainly i did in my mind when i got married......
But that "I DO" touched so many lives.....first of all me and my husband..it changed our lives forever.We have been friends since we were fifteen years old and getting married was inevitable.As my fairytale wedding took place not only us but all of our loved ones were happy for us...
What i thought would be the most happiest day of my life was also the most saddest day.Being a girl is a curse..while i was getting married i had my husband on one side and my father on the other..the two most important men in my life..together they are the pillars on which i stand..while my father is my foundation my husband is my reality.So really there is no question of making a choice and i can bet a daughter can never make that choice.
Everyone told me that i never looked happy at my marriage...happy i was but the thought that i will have to go away and leave my parents behind was heart wrenching.
All of a sudden i was the daughter in law of another family and officially i was the married daughter of my family..the identity with which i was born was taken away from me forever.
I sometimes think of those people who start a new life with a partner who they hardly know. I have been fortunate in this case at least and i still say that i would have never left my home and parents if it would have been someone else.
The love and support i found in him is really a gift...a gift worth cherishing..worth celebrating.The most important of all is that he understands the love i have for my parents...According to him my "Bidaai" was the most difficult situation he has ever faced in his life....he really wanted to leave me there and run..:D
Two years have passed since i got married but still cant stop thinking about that day that changed my life forever....for good or bad that is for my fate to decide..........
Every day of my life as a daughter has been a gift and every day as a wife seems to be a blessing my father gave me....

My School Days...

From a very young age i was very proud that i was a student of South Point High School..one of the most famous schools in Calcutta.i dont remember my first days at south point but certainly few of them are still very much alive in my memory...my father used to take me to school and buy me some flowers for my teachers..which later on became a habit..so this way i started my school life..or rather i started my life in the school which gave me good education, my best friends.. favourite teachers and most importantly it gave me my love..:D
I always had very few friends but the ones i had were the closest to me ever.Manjari and Parama...what can i say about them...they have a special place in my heart..Manjari was the notorious one like me and Parama was the cool one.Everybody called us "Three Musketeers".We did everything that we were not supposed to do..we ran around the school..played pranks on others.called names to other girls who were always busy concentrating on how they looked..and we were concentrating on how the boys looked..:D
As we grew up we changed as persons but at heart we were and still are the same..time flied by and someone special came into my life....Deepayan.He was more of a friend than anything else.In this case also my great friends gave me great support.
I loved my school so much that i ditched a very good college to continue my studies in my school after i passed 10th standard..Years flew by and gradually i reached the last day of school..It was one of the saddest day of my life..I hardly had a life without South Point..but i had to move on....and i did.
More than 8 years have passed since i last went to school but i can still hear the tiffin bells which we eagerly waited for or bells to commence the end of a boring period..the chitter chatter in class...still can remember the stupid things we used to do in school..the laughs,the cries,the joy,the pain and yet it seems so long ago.............